Public and Private Self

     There are some people that I know, who know both my public and private self.  Having both a private and public self allows me to act accordingly to new people and still have a private life.  Very few people know my private life because I tend to keep secrets about myself from other people.  On the other hand, people tend to see my public side a lot more and I assume they enjoy that side other then my private one because people always say how much I can be.  It always good to have both because a private side allows you to have some “you” time and that will always help me calm down if I am stressed about something.

       My private self is usually very private and I only act that way around 5 people who I care about a lot.  There are some aspects that I do not share to anyone.  I have had a bad experience with telling someone a secret; there are some people that you cannot trust.  As for my private self I am usually more laid back.  I usually help people with their problems in a serious manner.  I tend to make a lot of dirty/political jokes when I’m with certain people.  As funny as I can be, if there’s a time where I need to be serious and mature, I am the first person to act in that manner.   I think in the world we live in, we need to be more serious about certain manner.  There has been only one time where I have let everyone into my private life and showed my true colors to a room full of people.  Right after my father passed away, people where asking me “Why wasn’t I upset?” and I gave excuses why I wasn’t acted upset.  Then the time came for the funeral and I was asked the same question about ten times in ten minutes.  In a room full of people I explained why I wasn’t showing how upset I was and told them how different I really am, compared to the person they knew and loved. 

      My public self is a far cry from my private self.  When I’m going out with friends to a bar or club I act very wild and crazy.  I change the way I act because when going out you are always meeting new people and you want to put on a good impression.  When meeting someone knew I usually tell some funny jokes, but not dirty, and make some intelligent observations.  You do not want to offend someone with a joke or statement so I keep the dirty and political jokes for my private life.  No matter how crazy or wild I get, when push comes to shove and there a time where I will have to act mature, I will be that person with others.  There are times when the people I am with are acting immature and wild, and people get ticked off that I’m telling them to relax or calm down.  That is more of the mature side to my public self and it taps into my private self.  As you can see my private and public self come together because of how mature and serious I can act.

     In conclusion, there are many differences to my private and public self, as there are many similarities also.  I do not find any problems with having both these sides.  I love both sides of myself because it allows me to be myself and I don’t have to act different for anybody else.  As long as I don’t tell my secrets to anyone and allow any into my private self then I have no problems with it.  I find it more helpful to have two different sides because it allows you to still be yourself but act differently around other people without people calling you fake.